i begin my first post of 2013 by wishing everyone a happy new year may you find peace,love,freedom in your lives, and find meaning,purpose and worth in whatever you do.
2012′s long gone,and for me,moving forward,is going backwards.i say that because now that i have realized the importance of moving on from this pathetic sentimental mess that i’ve become,is transforming myself back to who i was-detached and peaceful.obsessing over anything,however beautiful it makes you feel,is a waste of your own time and energy.time and energy,they’re all we have in this transient world which is slowly fading away.and no matter what,i will not waste myself away,for someone who doesn’t even acknowledge all that i give away.i resume being who i was,i had just lost myself for a moment there.
i’m appearing for the first competitive exam of my life this sunday,and this one actually matters to me.all the tests i’ve given at school have been worthless to me.but this one’s an entrance exam for the National Institute of Design,Ahmedabad,India.i have a dream,to set up a hippie clothing label-hemp fabrics,tie-dye,cotton dresses,trippy colours,etc.and ofcourse,continue with my weird art.
just yesterday,i made a list of things i love/would love in a woman or man.please don’t think i’m being picky and choosy or anything along those lines,i’m not at all shallow,i’m quite open-minded and non-judgmental.i can grow close to almost anyone,except the narrow-minded-sexist-homophobic cunts,however,there are a few things that i would prefer over others.oh,and in case i haven’t mentioned earlier,in the blog,i’m bisexual,and proud.so here’s is the list,at first i’m writing about the values i’d look for,then the physical attributes-
1.PASSION for love/life/music/art/literature/film/politics/gender equality.
2.some amount of INTELLECTUAL CAPACITY,i’m sorry,but i really can’t have a conversation with someone who doesn’t have any knowledge,or wisdom,about anything.
3.HONESTY in regards to every little thing he/she feels/wants/does.
4.the person has GOOD CONTROL OVER LANGUAGE-i can’t explain why,but when someone has a way with words,i find it extremely sexy.
5.the person LOVES TO TALK-i talk,a lot.at times i don’t,but those times are rare.
6.the person has either belief in,or respect for SPIRITUALITY-i cannot connect with a man or a woman if they don’t believe or respect the value of a human soul.in an unexplained way,my belief in the power of the soul has changed my life.
PREFERABLE PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES/CHARACTERISTICS-
like love NATURALLY SKINNY guys.(i’m completely against the whole “pro-ana” or “pro-mia” lifestyle,i’ve had/still have a lot of body image issues,so i think the emphasis on NATURALLY SKINNY must be made). the one guy who i keep fantasizing about making love to is Kurt Cobain,my one true love,so there you go.
2.i love CURVY women.so,when it comes to the body shape of women and men,i have quite a different preference.i love women who are proud of their curves.even when it comes to my art,i love drawing women.i’m not saying there’s anything wrong with skinny women,and forgive me for being blunt,but i love women with beautiful breasts.
3.i cannot resist myself when someone SMELLS GOOD.just recently,on a night of drunken-misadventure,S,someone i’ve written about earlier,smelled so good,it compelled me to leave a hickey on his neck where he’d put the perfume. ofcourse,the fact that he’s really skinny , literally worships my tongue piercing and the state of consciousness i was in,were also contributing factors.but i distinctly remember that he smelled SO HOT.
4.i love both men and women with LONG HAIR.its plain beautiful,and quite attractive.
5.i like it when someone has WEIRD EYES.by weird i don’t mean crazy-person eyes.when someone’s eyes are magnetic and alive,that’s when they’re weird,for me.because the “normal” eye these days is one without any expression and life.
6.i love LONG and THIN FINGERS,both on men and women.and this is not for any sexual reason(s),but i have a fascination with the way long fingers look.i realize that sounds quite strange,but i am a strange person,so therein lies the explanation.
7.i prefer GUYS who are TALLER THAN ME (that should be above 5feet 8 inches) and WOMEN who are SHORTER THAN ME.i can only picture myself with people like that.
so there was my list.i feel the need to say this once again-I AM NOT CHOOSY.these are just things i PREFER over others.so if you are/know someone who fits the description,let me know eh?